Wednesday, March 20, 2013

As I Mom of 3 with a 20, 7, and 4 year old life has been an adventure after being diagnosed with breast cancer in July 2012. I call it the great balancing act. I always believed that children are only little for such a short period of time. Every year it seems that the window of innocence is cut shorter and I decided that I was going to try to show my kids that cancer is not a death sentence. We made jokes about the tubes. I called them my pets. I told my 3 year at the time that they were extra toys that the hospital put in so I can do magic tricks.Only the funniest Mommies get them ..

My 7 year old was so happy that Mom was gonna be home. When she asked why her Mom had to get cancer I explained," Well ya know how I work all the time, God decided that I needed a break to spend time with my kids while I heal. You know that a Mom's kids are the best medicine right?"  I told her Cancer was just a test for our family.As the hair fell out and the wigs came on, I explained I was being a fashionista with different wigs. Even my cocky 20 year old has come around. When he complains about how hard he has it, looking for a job I remind him what my daily balancing act is. All things worth anything are hard work.                                                                                         

Since my diagnosis our family has gotten stronger. We decided not to let this beat us.You have to smile and look around. In this world there is always someone unfortunately worse off then you. You have to be grateful for what you have and draw strength from that. Some days the chemo was so strong my body wanted to give up but you look at your kids and just know they need you. You go to cheerleading match finals as she may never be there again. You go to his Mother's tea, just for the memory it will leave with him. Most of all you assure your husband and family how much you appreciate them, and tell them your okay even on the bad days. You do the great juggling act, be the best wife, mom,aunt, sister,daughter, volunteer, advocate, and neighbor. As the memories of your actions will kill the carnivorous and blaze a lasting imprint toward the future that no cancer can kill.